No Future, But Am Glad We Have Today
Life is unpredictable. It will present what you are most looking forward to when you least expect it. Probably it’s the universe’s way of surprising us and giving us joy.
How does one know who is their soul mate, perfect partner, dream come true? I wish there were applications to serve this purpose. Romantic movies, books and endless romantic songs have this idea installed in our brain about a perfect someone meant for you and if you would have asked me even a year back if such a feeling really existed, I would have laughed.
It all began when I was preparing for my MBA. Our eyes met once or twice during class and we had our usual pleasantries. Soon the preparation classes ended and I had started to regret that I will never see her again.
I believe we are mere puppets in the game of life and everything is pre-written. After about five months I received a friend request from her on Facebook. I could not believe this was actually happening but then slowly the chemistry in our conversations grew. She had started living in another city by then and I had moved to a different location, so distance was an issue, but our endless conversations compensated for it. After a few conversations one day she finally dropped the bomb and my heart shattered – she was already engaged to a guy living abroad.
Her parents had chosen the guy for her and she was to spend the rest of her life with this stranger. They got engaged in January this year and are scheduled to marry soon. She said she had not liked the guy and despite explaining this to her parents nothing had changed. I could feel her discomfort regarding the situation and wondered if I could do anything to make her feel better and alleviate her suffering. Some days I would persuade her to fight for her right, on other days I would lighten up her mood by playing a song on my guitar. She loved and respected her parents and did not want to go against their will since they had sacrificed a lot for her.
Life is unfair, but then as Stephen Hawking says ‘God does play dice’. With each conversation our bond grew stronger. We spoke about music, movies, hobbies, pets, our fears, dreams, goals, our past relationships, perfect dates and sex but mostly about how much we missed each other. How we both wanted to reach out to each other in the class, how we wish we had met before, how we were mirror images of each other, how seeing the moon at the same time made us connect at the subconscious level. Our conversations would meander around places we wanted to visit and be lost in each other, about walks on the beach with hands clasped, singing a song, kissing in the rain, watching the sunset wrapped up in a single bed sheet, about bonfires, romantic dinner dates and countless other things.
Yes I can say unequivocally that she makes my heart beat faster and the text on her phone that says ‘online and typing’ makes me smile. Reading her conversations makes me believe in the wonderful world. I don’t know whether we will have a future together but am glad that we met and still have today to live our moments together.
